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DPN 30th: Racism Was an Ugly Duckling

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Carl Schroeder: Unseen and Forgotten Hero of Deaf President Now

When Carl Schroeder was dying, he shared an invaluable story about Deaf President Now (DPN). There were a lot of stories to share though. He told a story that when he visited John Yeh and learned that Yeh heavily appropriated DPN. I am talking about spending a lot of money before it became materialized. Yeh is a good man.

I was told about this story how I. King Jordan (IKJ) and Paul Kelly knew each other before DPN. Paul Kelly encouraged IKJ to apply and coached him how to get this job. Of course, Jordan awarded Kelly by giving him a promotion to Vice President of Administration and Business. That is where Kelly got his hands by controlling Gallaudet today and tomorrow. 30 years ago Carl said no to IKJ and he became an ugly duckling and he said that he is comfortable with it because he knows that he is in literature and pictures, too.

Carl had a huge clash with one of the Seven Ducks and Carl felt his hatred. It was not even pretty. One of the Seven Ducks spewed hatred and racist language towards Carl and the other Duck supported that racist Duck. Through Carl’s “campaign” before and in the DPN demonstration, Carl insisted that Gallaudet do a new search. That is where Carl was made even more ugly duckling. They picked IKJ and thought he would leave in few years. However, he overstayed his welcome and continued to entertain this welcome.

Anyone ever remember that in 1991, Jordan shut down bilingual education and ASL? That was only three years as Gallaudet University President. Remember, Jordan was a huge Sim-Com user and still is today. Carl was right and tried to warn the Seven Ducks that Jordan was not the right selection. He knew. He knew. He knew. Yet regardless this attitude, anyone who finds himself in a position of Gallaudet University needs to develop a Deaf-centered environment if he means to lead the University well that was supposed to be ASL-centered.

So much for Harkin’s speech in 1988 at Gallaudet few months after DPN—“The inauguration of President Jordan is the beginning of a new era for deaf people around the world. No more will deaf people tolerate the paternalism and the charity of those who seek to control their future. You ARE the masters of your own destiny.”

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Ten years later after DPN, one Deaf guy asked a question, “Why not Deaf President Now should be a national holiday?” The whole story needs to be filled in from the start. As long as Gallaudet emphasizes diversity, it will take years before a mental unity will merge unless I am grossly mistaken. “Div”—is in Latin meaning spilt. If it is not unity, uni-means oneness. It was the faculty senate that is the most powerful voice. It is the same truth for all other colleges and universities and we need to be aware about this very much. It is extremely important!

Carl was an “unseen” hero in DPN. He was very much involved with DPN meetings and all. The only regret as in 2013, one person asked a question for Ben Jarashow’s lecture: The 7 Ducks: Behind the DPN Movement if any 7 Ducks had any regrets. A Duck threw the most ugliest and racist language in his face and other Duck supported that Duck. Yes, that duck had a HUGE clash with Carl. No regrets? Tsk tsk. Racism is a social disease.

Fast forward. 2006. There was second protest—see what happens? Carl knew that IKJ was not the right selection. Carl became a scapegoat. The administration did nothing to minimize their anger and there was an insidious plan at Gallaudet University to remove him from his professoriate.

Of all the DPN duckies, Carl was considered crazy and radical. The reason he was very disappointed with the appointment of IKJ at the helm of Gallaudet because IKJ switched his support between the Board of Trustees and the protest. Carl was the one who inspired students with his talk on the night before the students and other people marched to the Mayflower Hotel.

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The only reason he became blackballed because he said “Fuck Hearing” (So what! I bet there are a lot of Deaf people who would say the same thing) and the administration made his life hell.

Remember 2006 Protest Video? There were couple of hearing people who said some not pretty things. For example, Dirksen Bauman, the world’s only hearing faculty member in ASL/Deaf Studies at Gallaudet U. said not cool about Irish people. Why would he say something like that? Ironic, right? Wait, Carl was targeted because he was DEAF. So much for hearing privileges.

Carl was an unseen hero. He had a huge passion. He fought for students. The leaders of the Deaf would like to know what it all means. The students at Gallaudet University—they would like to know, too. Gallaudet University was designed for DEAF people FIRST.

Their lives live the most extraordinarily satisfying lives in a period that has witnessed the 1988 DPN; a world in which Deaf people have been “seen” and in which hundreds of millions of Deaf people around the world live in conditions of oppression and hopelessness. It demands change, especially in academia. Most importantly, students could become new meaning-makers. Carl told me many stories about DPN—and he approved of student protest because it was meaningful and necessary. His or her battle harmed no one. Take notice. Be aware. Appreciate the students.

Most recently about a week ago, I learned that one of DPN original Student leaders was asking for names to be part of DPN 30th anniversary—and the majority of people are white. How come there are not enough Deaf people of color? Why are they shunned out of the picture?

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Carl’s passionate will never  forgotten. He was very much part of DPN Movement. Shame on two Ducks for encouraging Racism. They were the most unqualified, misleading, uninformed vile excuse for humanity. I support Carl all the way. I do not support DPN as national holiday because of racism and it needs to be addressed sooner or later. I do not appreciate hatred.

The worst part was that when Carl passed away and had asked me to be person of charge for his memorial service at Ole Jim (Alumni House) in April 2014. That day, there were few original Ducks did not even bother to attend Carl’s memorial service and pay respect instead of watching a NFL tryout for a Deaf football player at Gallaudet on the same day.  Laughing, hand-shaking, debating about sports. It tells a lot. Selfish? Guilt? Who knows?

I also learned that Ben Jarashow is attempting to write a book about DPN—and I hope the book will not be all-white literature book. History needs to be changed. Truth needs to be seen. Do not hide the history. Do not hide the stories. Deaf people of color needs to be addressed more often.

-JT

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Deafhood: A New Realization of Love

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First part: Childhood

Second part: Manhood

Third part: Deafhood

I just completed watching Paddy Ladd’s final and part three. When I first met Paddy Ladd in September 2012, in my birth state, I remember seeing some Deaf people who gave me dirty looks when I showed up there. There were ugly names throwing at me. One Deaf interpreter showed a great deal of displeasure when I was walking down the aisle to meet Paddy, the very same Deaf interpreter was attempting to block me because of malicious rumors the interpreter received from deficit thinkers. I realized that the very same person who supports Deafhood journey does not want me to succeed in my own journey. I refused to let them stop me.

Living in Pacific Northwest those years have not been kind to my journey. From the collective grief I shared my childhood life as a lost kid, I remember when I was 19, I received a full scholarship for two years at ITT Technical Institute, free tuition. They saw great potential in my skills and I was good at math.

For the next few days, it has been really rough time for me then on a Friday afternoon, I made a phone call through Telecommunications Relay Service (TRS) to talk with a representative who came to my grandparents house a week ago where I signed the agreements under peer pressure. I informed the representative that I was no longer interested in pursuing my education there because I was not ready in my own core. I dealt with a great deal of confusion.

A year later, I got a letter from Oregon State University offering me a full scholarship, and again, I had to turn down because I was not ready. I felt more confused. I was not sure where I would be doing with my own life. Then my life completely changed when I was jailed at age of 21, and hit a bottom rock. I was jolted back into painful journey. You know, an eagle’s nest has fallen from the cliff’s edge, crushed by a rock fall. Each day, layers of systematic oppression gain more, another layer of hatred I deal daily.

Then I got a job at a hotel in Portland, working in line cook, and the executive chef liked how fast I was, and the hotel chain and executive chef has encouraged me to enroll at the Culinary Institute of America in New York, and it was a huge honor, but I was on probation and I was heart-broken, and had to turn down the offer. It was tough time. So, I continued to work there for couple of years, struggling to find my own identity as Deaf person. Boy, I was really lost. I became the target from my own community, Deaf community.

I decided to enroll at a local community college, just to do something about my life. Then I became a serious student and ended up getting good grades and pushed me all the way to enroll at a university, that would forever change my life in many ways. I graduated with three degrees, all with honors at the same time.

Within few months after graduation, I got an acceptance letter from Gallaudet University for MA in Deaf Studies with emphasis in Cultural Studies in 2012. I had to hold that spot later. After meeting Paddy in Seattle, the next day, I immediately wrote him an e-mail, showing my passion to sign up for Deafhood Studies at University of Bristol under Centre for Deaf Studies and saw course descriptions, and I was so ready and eager trying to find a way to get there.

Deaf-centered academic studies–Deafhood thoughts. It was perfect! Then I learned that University of Bristol administration did not think Deaf Studies was important anymore. I was surprised—I remember that day well. I said, “Why? Why is it happening?” and then I felt even more lost.

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The very next day after arriving in DC in October 2012, I visited Gallaudet University with a big smile.

The same year when it was shut down in 2013, I enrolled at Gallaudet University on a graduate scholarship in ASL/Deaf Studies, the course descriptions was not the same. It was not Deaf-centered philosophy. The ASL/Deaf Studies department was running erratic priorities, rumormongers, and saw great deal of favoritism, corruption, abusing powers, cheating grades, and an oppressive system continues to target Deaf returning citizens. It was not even Deafhood centric.

I lost scholarship fast enough and became the student of four days journey. I became the pariah at Gallaudet University. They do not support the idea of processing a Deafhood journey. They live in culture of fear, reaffirming its commitment to the society’s oppressive core values and norms.

One Deaf professor from ASL/Deaf Studies department once told me that the department is not the same anymore. I agreed. When I first saw the idea of Deafhood Studies, it was all about investment in the future. It was an integral part of one’s move toward compassion as the state of being Deaf. All the scholarships I turned down until I received a scholarship from Gallaudet University, the world’s only hub for higher education for Deaf people—was taken away. I was even more heart-broken more than anything in my entire life. They invested in hate and humiliation.

I could go on more, but the final question of Paddy’s interview: “What do you feel you’ve given to the world?” Paddy then answers, “What a question!”

Paddy has given my world a complete change and gave me an extra motivation to write a book—the most challenging task I ever done in my life. After reading Understanding Deaf Culture: In Search of Deafhood, the knowledge of how the constructed balance of power across levels of oppression affects the capacity and opportunities for Deaf people today and tomorrow. I learned much about myself by seeing thousands of Deaf people being oppressed daily. Even at Gallaudet University, too. It is not Deaf-centered university….not yet.

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Seeing their stories invariably shows me much about their struggles and makes me think of my own. I have found Paddy’s contribution of coining Deafhood, an invaluable to think in terms of healthy and healing process, goals and expectations every time when I would suffer emotional pain; it is difficult to explain this. It is complicated. There was a huge difference between Deafhood Studies at University of Bristol and ASL/Deaf Studies at Gallaudet University.

When I think of Deafhood, I empower myself more. From my bottom of my heart, I thank Paddy Ladd for all compassion as a way of life and appreciate being state of Deaf. In one of my recent blog posts, Deafhood: A Journey of Greater Thinking—I wrote:

To master positive thinking, active learning is a core element of their learning. Deaf people would benefit a lot from their Deafhood journey to identity their freedom, bound, and inflectional, derivative, or obsolete environment and they shall design the goal and assessment for understanding of their journey just as much as building a high view of confidence. They would master the basic content and also express in creative and challenging ways. They feel the true growing of pain. They are taught content but process, the methodology by Deafhood journey is generated.

-JT

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Trump’s Speech: State of the Hate

Forgotten History Lesson: Between National Geographic Society and Deaf People

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Today we need to reflect history what it meant to all of us. History is what we live, learn, and suffer from the founder of the National Geographic Society (NGS) that was founded on this day today 130 years ago on January 27, 1888 in Washington, D.C; If history was never existed, what would it be like if NGS did not exist in the first place? Warning: The essay will be bit long to read. Open your eyes to the readership what NGS had an agreement with the Volta Review that may have severely hit Deaf community hard that time.

It is invisible that they share with the common interests of hate speech the goal of a tolerant society, in which Deaf people are judged by “the content of their character”—the term, “tolerant society” I learned as a sociology major, and had asked the class to read a book, The Tolerant Society by Lee C. Bollinger. The question, how much tolerance can Deaf community live with the fact that the pain with hate speeches that targets Deaf people from National Geographic Society that has strong ties with Alexander Graham Bell Association For the Deaf and Hard of Hearing?

The formation of National Geographic Society’s idea was the brainchild of Gardiner Greene Hubbard, Alexander Graham Bell’s father in law. Hubbard’s daughter, Mabel Hubbard was Deaf. Ten years after it was opened in 1888, Alexander Graham Bell became the second president of NGS.

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Did National Geographic Society ever hire a writer to do a biased story about Deaf people in a magazine? The leadership of Alexander Graham Bell has not forgotten for his legacy to run NGS.

If there was a story written about Deaf people, then how come The Volta Review writes in 1910, written by Alexander Graham Bell, Chairman of the Advisory Council, “The New Departure Explained” in The Volta Review, Volume 12, Number 1 with the opening statement: “The American Association to Promote the Teaching of Speech to the Deaf came into existence in 1890. “

In a paragraph called The Example of the National Geographic Society, Bell writes: “The Board of Directors have been much impressed by the great success that has attended the introduction of a new policy by the National Geographic Society, and have considered favorably the expediency of trying this policy with our own Association.”

Whose Association? The American Association to Promote the Teaching of Speech to the Deaf. It is now known as Alexander Graham Bell Association For the Deaf and Hard of Hearing.

In that same paragraph Bell writes in Application to the Association, the quote in his words, “The Board of Directors have thought the experiment at least worthy of trial. If we meet with success at all comparable to that attained by the National Geographic Society, we can advance the work of teaching speech to the deaf in a way that has never hitherto been possible. If we fail, we are no worse off than before and can return to our present practice of supporting our publication from our endowment funds.

Of course, is considering such a proposition, the fear will very naturally be felt that in popularizing the Review we will lessen the technical value of our journal and diminish its usefulness to teachers of the deaf. Here again the experience of the National Geographic Society is decidedly encouraging. In that Society the feeling was very generally entertained by the geographical experts, who largely composed the membership of the Society before the adoption of the new policy, that the technical value of the National Geographic Magazine would be impaired by its popular features. That fear has proven groundless, and the Society publishes today as many technical articles as it did when its magazine was exclusively a technical journal.”

Alexander Graham Bell was a fear-monger leader. He was a master manipulator. When I first read this article, the way he writes, it is about culture of fear towards Deaf people, in encouraging Oralism and hatred because in his words, “….we can advance the work of teaching speech to the deaf in a way that has never hitherto been possible.” And that reeks of a red flag that with the goal of diminishing teachers of the Deaf, it may been point out to the image of Deaf teachers being as usefulness.

It was mind-boggling to read this article this morning and had promoted me to write this post because what it has bothered me the most that he encouraged the culture of fear and many technical articles had been biased towards Deaf people. “That fear has proven groundless….”

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Why did NGS allow hate speech, deficit thinkers, and the formation of hate mongers that targets Deaf people today? The history exactly 130 years ago, the formation of hate speech in a popular magazine was invented and approved by the board including Alexander Graham Bell’s father in law and Bell himself. It has increased the culture of fear in higher friction by a factor of a million readers. The number was 40 million readers each month that time. Think about it.

When Alexander Graham Bell was chosen as second president of NGS in 1898, what was Deaf community like in that time? One year before he was appointed as president, Volta Bureau known as Alexander Graham Bell headquarters today was founded as a center to begin lab experiments on Deaf children.

Bell writes in his 1898, a 26-page paper called, The Question of Sign Language and the Utility of Signsunbelievable. He said, “I say this from personal knowledge; for long before I became an instructor of the deaf, I was myself a teacher of elocution, as my father was before me, and my grandfather before him.” The legacy of Bell family continues. Notice his paper title? The questioning of sign language bears the authority and the culture of fear in Bell’s power.

Robert McGregor, the first president of National Association of the Deaf, two years before AGBell was chosen to run NGS, McGregor answers with strong message that we need to see:

“By whom then are signs proscribed? By a few educators of the deaf whose boast is that they do not understand signs and do not want to; by a few philanthropists who are otherwise ignorant of the language; by the parents who do not understand the requisites to the happiness of their deaf children and are inspired with false fears by the educators and philanthropists.” that can be found in the book, The Deaf Mute Howls by Albert Ballin. The key words: Philanthropists and false fears.

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In that picture Bell said, “The world and all that is in it is our theme, and if we can’t find anything to interest ordinary people in that subject we better shut up shop”

That quote really ticks, no? AGBell and his father in law were huge philanthropists for NGS. No wonder why AGBell writes in Volta Review: “the review will be naturally be felt that in popularizing…” in the same theme above to shut up and dominate Deaf people.

The popularizing of Deaf people has been AGBell’s favorite target and the tolerant society of false fears continues in the name of NGS. The pursuit of happiness for Deaf children has also been targeted for cochlear implant industries, Oralism, mainstreaming and the laundry list of colonization and oppression. To face this betrayal of Deaf people dealing with hatred, it is urgent that we as Deaf community needs to realize that the reality that the language of crisis, is seriously needed to be examined and discussed.

Will we ever see an apology letter from National Geographic Society for encouraging hate speech towards Deaf children? Unchecked hate speech is expensive and we as Deaf community who are survivors of Alexander Graham Bell’s hateful ideologies, we cannot afford ignorance anymore. The exchange value of fear becomes dominant, and this has been recognized and reflected in language hegemony against sign languages and the culture of the Deaf. Time is spent, saved, invested, and wasted.

When I was a kid, I used to collect lots of magazines from National Geographic Society to educate myself to be aware and appreciate the “geographical experts” that later became the scarlet letter and hidden message just like da Vinci Code, and then I did not realize that I had been exploited to Alexander Graham Bell’s dark secrets within geographical borders. He was the master manipulator. As for the survivors of Alexander Graham Bell, in the past and present tense, I feel the pain. So much for Bell’s words, “In that Society the feeling was very generally entertained by the geographical experts, who largely composed the membership of the Society.”

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40 million readers that time in 1888, eight years after notorious Milan Resolution, became the geographic experts to follow Alexander Graham Bell’s practice to teach Oralism and fire 90 percent of Deaf teachers has been dominated by hearing supremacy including hearing teachers taking their jobs away.

We see the word, “education” every day in our eyes, Is it one of the most complex noun of all? Education means “to train someone for what?” and AGBell believes in teacher-centered, not student-student. If a hearing teacher thinks a Deaf pupil is better off speaking, then the pupil is really struck more than we actually think.

Look at the image on above left side: imagine with Deaf people were being targeted in 1898, the loss of jobs, shamed, shunned, exploited, and ridiculed thanks to AGBell’s doing. What happened with the American democracy for Deaf Americans, Deaf immigrants from all walks of life who came to America for the quality of Deaf Education thanks to Clerc’s vision?

That came to all sense when I first found out about the history date this morning and lead me to do a lot of reading and felt the importance that we must boycott NGS and challenge AGBell’s lies for exposing media manipulation about Deaf children, signed languages and the “success” stories about Oralism.

It was also mind-boggling for me to write this, too. Looking back as a Deaf kid remembering my first time reading National Geographic Society, I felt violated. I even subscribed NGS with my hard-working money where I would chop a lot of woods and build chords getting ready for winter time. Do you feel the same way that you were being violated and exploited by AGBell later when you found out the truth in your adult life?

Today, in Deaf community, we need to focus on civil and human rights, social justice, and challenge the misconducts of Alexander Graham Bell. We have to stop any form of hate. By the way, you see Washington Monument when you visit in the nation’s capital. It was completed in 1888, that time it became the world’s tallest structure and let’s give Alexander Graham Bell the 555 feet middle finger. Do not be surprised that he witnessed the completion of Washington Monument.

What was he doing on October 9, 1888? Did he get the invitation to join the celebration? Get this, upon my research this morning, exactly four years on same date on October 9, 1884, he writes a paper in Washington, D.C., “The Deaf Audiometer”—Editorial copied from the “Deaf-Mute” Journal. In the opening statement: “Prof. Alexander Graham Bell is certainly laboring hard and faithfully in the interests of of the deaf and dumb” and here comes the statement we may not seen this before, “One of his newest devices is called the Audiometer, and is intended to test and register the hearing capacity of those who suffer partial or supposed total deafness”

What does it mean to you? To me, I have my thoughts what it means to me. Registering the hearing capacity is a form of bigotry. Is it also language hegemony? Language deprivation? Was it the beginning of the rise of cochlear implant industries and give AGBell as the champion of listening and speaking to wipe out the image of Deaf people that includes “partial or supposed total deafness”?

The highest goal is to hear completely again even with failed cochlear implant attempts, stem cells at the University of Bristol in England with hopes to cure Deaf people and many biased ideas is all about to register the hearing capacity again. The state of being Deaf is natural and biological. It is not pathological.

National Geographic Society was only nine months baby when the Washington Monument was completed that year. It’s the same idea when a mother carry a Deaf healthy baby in the womb for nine months. It is a biological condition. AGBell found a way to build that idea in his head for long time and used to trick Deaf people, the parents of Deaf children, and the society for his brilliance.

AGBell saw the idea of NGS as a baby step to remind the society that Deaf babies needs to forget themselves as the quote below but first, Alexander Graham Bell found a way to promote The Volta Review with the membership of NGS readers to expose Deaf children and the practice of Oralism. Did AGBell ever re-printed his most famous hate speech in 1884, “We should try ourselves to forget that they are deaf. We should try to teach them to forget that they are deaf “even after NGS was founded with the idea of adding the Volta Review to the readers? No way we can forget AGBell’s ideas in 1910 that we must repeat ourselves to remember this quote:

“If we meet with success at all comparable to that attained by the National Geographic Society, we can advance the work of teaching speech to the deaf in a way that has never hitherto been possible. If we fail, we are no worse off than before and can return to our present practice of supporting our publication from our endowment funds.”

-JT

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References:

https://www.loc.gov/resource/magbell.17200101/?sp=1

https://www.loc.gov/resource/magbell.37600801/?sp=14

https://usdeafhistory.files.wordpress.com/2013/12/mcgregor-robert-bio1.pdf

https://www.onthisday.com/events/date/1888

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/National_Geographic

https://books.google.com/books?id=Ec5JAQAAMAAJ&pg=PA9&lpg=PA9&dq=deaf+national+geographic+society&source=bl&ots=PvN6D8aZuc&sig=-itJgLOcWSWuqLCCcdqgvRI_nQo&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwiPw5ud0PfYAhUDuFMKHbSmBT8Q6AEIYTAJ#v=onepage&q=deaf%20national%20geographic%20society&f=false

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/National_Geographic_Society#Founders

http://www.history.com/this-day-in-history

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alexander_Graham_Bell_honors_and_tributes

Ladd, Paddy. Understanding Deaf Culture: In Search of Deafhood. Page 129.

 

 

 

Hate Cannot Drive Out Hate……

In celebrating Rev. Martin Luther King, Jr Day—one of his quotes that will always forever remembered in my life.

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Honoring the Legacy of Martin Luther King, Jr.

 

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Martin Luther King Jr Memorial. Washington, DC.

When I was living in Portland, Oregon—I visited Rev. Martin Luther King, Jr statue called The Dream just right outside Oregon Convention Center. That was where Deaf People of Color Conference was taken in 2010. I was blown away with each of presenters. I see dream in the conference theme “Hands Joined, Signs United, Colors Flying”—with the main objective to heal from Racism, one of the society’s most venom letter in the English language. The quote by MLK continues to inspire as well as struggle to overcome hate, “Life’s most persistent and urgent question is, what are you doing for others?”

That quote was mind-boggling—and we must continue to honor MLK’s legacy. When I visited National MLK Memorial in Washington, D.C; the statue of MLK had reflected many values that unite all of us to continue to fight against hate. Especially in the Age of Trumpism, we need to continue to fight for civil rights, and the legacy what MLK had done made us to be socially responsible to be on the front lines to make a radical change to overcome hate.

I remember one day when I visited Lincoln Memorial and stood where MLK gave the most famous speech, I Have a Dream front of the largest audience—no way you can ever take that away like that. Moving from Portland to Washington, D.C. is a huge difference.

Portland, the whitest city in America, to DC, one of the largest Black populations in America, I see oppression every day around the city. This is 2018. For example, I remember standing outside in the back of the apartment in Trinidad area, my next-door neighbor was hosting a party, so they asked me to join the festive and appreciate the DC life. I was only living in DC eight months that time…and saw something surreal what I saw. It was hot summer.

Maybe one of the hottest summers so far and there were couple of Black people sitting, standing, and drinking a bottle of water and all of sudden, the police was driving around and decided to make a power trip and got out of the car and decided to grab their water bottle and emptied right front of them with laughter and one of the mothers became so upset and had bravely confronted them and the cops laughed and drove away. I saw the whole thing—I was like, what the fuck? Of course, the police officers—who were white.

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The language is different from Portland and DC. It has been a lot of experience to understand the problem of Racism, and I have seen the stereotype and full of hate. One of the best examples that Donald Trump said about Haiti, El Salvador, and African countries, “SHIT-HOLE”—what a SHIT HOLE PRESIDENT. As for Deaf community, we have to be thankful for National Black Deaf Advocates for its leadership. I’ve met few Deaf people from Haiti, and few African countries and they are incredible people!

As for Trump, you cannot fix a personality disorder—Trump is mentally nuts. People with personality disorders do not think there is anything wrong with them, and Trump is one of them. Trump will never acknowledge the fact that he has a problem even when he spewed hate as an American President—just wrong to see like this.

The growing of white supremacy in America is alarming, and the President of the United States creates the big picture about Racism and encourages violence against Black Deaf people. Remember the way he encourages harsher police brutality front of police officers and they all laughed. It was an alarming experience to see this. Perhaps there is a racist angle in there somewhere if we look hard enough.

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MLK day—the reflection about “soul searching” is important for us in the society. The book you see on the left side is one of the best books I ever read about MLK.

Please honor MLK’s legacy and celebrate his life. Oh, yes, please reserve a ticket in advance should you visit in DC to see National Museum of African American History and Culture.

-JT

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Trumpism: We Need to Continue Stop Hate

After Donald Trump makes a racist language calling Haiti and other African countries–“shit-hole” is a good example of white privilege through hate and encourage white supremacy.

From Shame to Scholar: Deafhood Journey

 

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2006. Graduation party.

Say all you want about Jason “JT” Tozier, because he does not care what you think. Well, he does. It depends. He can forgive Deaf community for feeling he have been trapped for long time. Deaf community in America, we approach our community with negativity, rather than viewing something else. He is being tired of portrayed as a monster in the spotlight.

He refused to have his life destroyed despite eight times he had faced death (five times by heart attack, two by guns and accidentally slipped off the bridge where his face on big rock so hard that could easily break his neck or even crack his face into pieces and that is only the beginning. He became a reviled figure, mocked, bullied, and humiliated countless times.

He have had Deaf people throw rocks breaking into his apartment windows, a Deaf guy in year 2000, pointed a real handgun at his face telling him to leave town. He had guns in his face twice. Five Deaf guys were about to team up and give him a brutal beating in Portland, Oregon. You name it; it has been done to him with many unimaginable things to him. Oh, there are more.

All these years, he is still punished for what he did, even as a 12 years old kid. His life was terrible. He had been beaten in schools. He had been threatened many times even lost count. He had been kidnapped when he was nine years old. He had been sexually abused when he was ten years old. He had done awful things that he did not really understand. While the word “privacy” does not appear in the constitutional document itself, there is something important to understand the “right to be left alone”—and this, for those affected by the hatred, once he have completed his court-mandated sentence, is the most prized right of them all.

He believes in the United States Constitution because it is the highest form of LAW in the land. He had been targeted and spitted in the very face of the people who put together a document with his freedom in his mind. We need to be reminded about 9th Amendment to the United States Constitution, “the enumeration in the Constitution, of certain rights, shall not be constructed to deny or disparage others retained by the people.”

This amendment is important because it is a commendable language, and this is the same amendment that should protect unlisted rights that is a basic tent of United States Constitution. He has an equal right, under the constitution as the supreme law of the land, to secure privacy and right to become a productive member of society again once he had served his sentence, as authored by the court and he does not need to be humiliated every day. For the last 32 years ago of his mistake, he was a lost child. No guidance. His world is hurting every day.

All these years what we were taught about democracy, if there is not a fair and balanced system of justice, then do you call it democracy? Unfortunately, we have crab theory, haters, bullies, and cyber-bullies pairing with deficit thinkers, which slants the negative perception of him, which do not give accurate depiction of human struggles. The person who attacks him loves to think they are the crusaders for justice. When emotional feelings guide their decisions on what they think is true this is called emotional overreactions.

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Overcoming Detours. 2010. Maryland. [Great Experience!]

Why is he still rejected in Deaf community? This is outrageous. But…. he refuses to live in shame. One day, he decided to become a scholar by attending colleges, and graduated with three degrees all with top honors. He was the first Deaf ever to win the highest award in the English department, Sigma Tau Delta, International English Honor Society. It was a huge feat. During his graduation, his English professor who was on graduation committee walked up to him and gave him a hug and said to him that he was his best student ever. It was a huge honor by his English professor who influenced him in Harlem Renaissance.

He fell in love with libraries where a place makes him happy and empowered. Each trip to the library has been always an adventure for him. On his way to library, he would think what kind of books he wants to read to create many ideas. Sociology was his love. He loved to think about everything around himself or people. There is a reason he has a big desire to write because he wishes to spread his thoughts for the circle of his family, friends, and acquaintances.

His journey into Deafhood was attempted to kill in Washington, D.C.; there were a lot of detours, unnecessary turns, and rocky roads; He would remain optimistic that he would pay more attention to the road signs, figuratively speaking. It is the same old game: no hype around the news and get Deaf people to tune into the latest news seeing Jason “JT” Tozier getting attacked somewhere in the circle of oppressors. Including Gallaudet University. Deaf Studies with Cultural Studies. He was a scholarship receipt.

He makes a statement that he cannot be invisible anymore. It was not necessary where it promotes more fear around Deaf community. Flashback memories are bound to repeat. Do you agree this is not a moment because it might be a movement? Oppressing Deaf returning citizens is a social responsibility, not a social norm. Anyone who purchases hate must sign a public agreement, and it is subjective to be disclosed for the greater good. His scholarship has a full intention to change the world, to make it a better place, to have the Deaf community appreciate more.

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Thanks, Carl Schroeder for the scholarship!

-JT

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World Kindness Day: Escape from Stigma

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Today, November 13, 2017, is World Kindness Day. Seriously, it is. Good time to remind yourself that for next year and for the reminder of the humanly lives. Be kind. Remember that everybody is fighting his or her own personal battles that you know nothing about. Stop hate please. I am writing about Deaf returning citizens.

Currently, I am reading a book, Stand up to Stigma: How We Reject Fear and Shame by Pernessa C. Seele, has helped me to think and questions that we need to analyze more about community accountability. We also need to recognize in a hierarchy who do a good job that would be promote to the next level. If they are not competent, then they do not get promoted and remained at that level. We also have responsibility to break the cycle of stigma, too.

Seriously, this book is damn good! I’ve read few books about Stigma, but this one is the top of all! I write to you that it will worth every dollar of yours to read this book and help break the cycle of stigma, and guide you to see the personal stories and it is only $17.95, of course with taxes.

Remember great literature George Orwell, that guy was brilliant for creating a shared language for educational equity, to understand the glossary of an important term:

Doublethink: The power of holding two contradictory beliefs in one’s mind simultaneously, and accepting both of them.

Then does it leads to a compassion that is any and all thoughts that serves the actions of seeing ourselves? Do we ever wonder that we do not talk enough about compassion?

Compassion is enhanced wherever and whenever consciousness displaces repression and unconsciousness and reality replace unreality.” Compassion & Self-Hate: An Alternative To Despair by Theodore Isaac Rubin, M.D;

Be kindness. Like I wrote above, everybody is fighting his or her own personal battles that you know nothing about. Let’s celebrate World Kindness Day!

-JT

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Dwight Benedict’s Smirk

 

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It has been really difficult day for me because a year ago today, I was clinically dead for ten minutes on the campus of the world’s famous university for Deaf people, Gallaudet University. In the same room where Dwight Benedict was in, he was walking down the aisle with a smirk because he had the hatred towards me—it was really difficult for me to think that way. How can I forget that? It is impossible to forget something like this.

My story must be seen, written, and examined. I grow tired and sick of people telling me to live in PAST. People do not know my life stories what exactly happened. It has been always HEARSAY. People choose to ignore my stories. Especially when a lot of people do not know the facts cannot comprehend what they were listening or do not care what the facts are and make up their own stories.

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Do you think it was professional of Dwight to smirk when someone else is dead? Many of faculty members witnessed in that room what Dwight did and would vouch for me whenever I need support. He is still walking around campus with power and the same smirk he carries.

When you see the statue of Laurent Clerc on Gallaudet campus, this is one of the most iconic symbols of America—a beacon of hope and acceptance for Deaf people everywhere. So how did coming to Gallaudet University become a crime? Deaf returning citizens are bad news! Make them suffer! Give them the death stare!

If we look at the history of Dwight Benedict’s bullying tactics for the last 37 years, being “Deaf returning citizen” usually just means being “unwanted” and more often than not, that has to do with ignorance and hatred. There are plenty of widespread insecurities at Gallaudet University. As an intellectual community, we the Deaf now seem to exist in permanent fear of the oblivion in the top university leadership, worrying about whether we can survive Dwight’s leadership.

At the same time, at Gallaudet University, we the Deaf appear uncomfortable with the hatred of Dwight’s leadership. The same leadership, so often the means to our advancement, now finds itself under a cloud of power that it falls under a wrong agenda. Disenchanted with Dwight’s past history yet fearful of our future, why are Deaf people—especially people of color and marginalized group struck in Dwight’s leadership where a mood of fear, hatred and low expectations influence our discussion and discourses on many fronts—where our higher education continues to be seen as the problem rather than the challenge.

I worked extremely hard to change my life around and I made an ultimate goal to be a professor. I even made name tags as a personal identification when I arrived in DC and put it around my neck to remind myself. I was so determined more than anything.

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This irrational insight against the grain of oppressed Deaf people on the campus, which teaches that hatred and bullying by Dwight does not lack human compassion. Deaf people in their struggle for social justice—are ignored because Dwight gets away with it. There have been many stories from Kendall Green about Dwight’s 37 years of oppressive leadership. A great many of damages were done, and many Deaf people were hurt.

My constitutional rights has been violated of due process and amounts to Cruel and Unusual Punishment, Eighth Amendment under United States Constitution and Dwight made it very difficult for me to receive higher education and set me up for harassment, public humiliation and bullying long after I served my time.

In February 27, 2014 meeting I was in, the most oppressive meeting ever I experienced in my entire life, he loved the idea very much where his buddy, Ted Baran, Director for DPS whom Dwight calls Ted in the meeting, “Ted is a good man” front of four other people brought up that I must be required to notify my graduate cohort, and walk around the entire Gallaudet campus and must tell everyone why I was jailed for with ugly labeling on my forehead. I was shocked. I already experienced humiliation and harassment at times when I would be at Gallaudet. No doubt, Dwight Benedict opened my old wounds. Dwight and Ted acted as Judge, Jury, and Executioner. The bald faced truth is that they should held accountable.

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Even though it has happened 30 years ago, still, I am set up for extreme public shaming and harassment. I had been a good returning citizen more than 20 years and paid no more than $100,000 in counseling and worked very hard to change my life around and graduated with three degrees all with honors even though I had been experiencing thousands and thousands of times being humiliated in my life. I’ve dealt with hearing counselors who do not understand my journey as Deaf person. I realized it was total lie and waste of money and time. Until I found Deaf-centered counseling, I cried and….

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Did I deserve “scarlet letter” for the rest of my life? Am I allowed to become a productive member of society? I am really sick of people telling me to live in the past and live with the stigma. Horrible lies about me, making me look really bad and I lost almost everything. It’s really hard for me. I cry. I cry. I cry. I suffer more. I suffer more. I suffer more.

Dr. Pernessa Steele, author of “Stand Up to Stigma: How We Reject Fear and Shame” writes: “Stigma” is a simple two-syllable word, yet it carries the weight of negative and often unfair beliefs that we hold about those who are different from us. Stigmas lock people into stereotyped boxes and deny us all the right to be our authentic and whole selves.

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I already had been ostracized from Gallaudet community. Dwight made sure to do more harm than good, with my commitment to turn my life around. I lost my scholarship, I lost my dream job, I lost networking opportunities, I lost pretty much everything and I became the scapegoat on the campus. That is exactly the cruel and unusual punishment. That was the sign of death.

When I woke up on the floor that day, I cried. I still remember being carried out of the room on the emergency stretcher and saw people hand waving at me and I put both of my thumbs letting them know that I’m still strong. Then I was rushed into emergency surgery and carried to an intensive care unit (ICU). The television on right side was turned on—and the presidential election results were still pending.

The worst part was….I was still in extreme shock wondering how I survived from massive heart attack. The election results—did not finalize until 3 AM and became even more heart-broken that Trump was elected. The rises of hate crimes begun. Then I finally fell asleep for only three hours until the nurses woke me up and said, “Time for injections”—my first reaction when I woke up hoping it was only a dream. Only I find it was not a dream. I stayed in the hospital for ten long days. Longest stay in my life.

Do you all remember how you felt when you woke up on November 9th of 2016 morning?

Many people who walked around from Gallaudet University have caught up and suffered in the idea that Dwight thinks he is always right, and that the way Dwight acts is best. But he was wrong in Gallaudet University. What happened with the due process? Why I was not informed with required due process?

Due process means that Gallaudet University cannot give me a serious punishment, like suspension or expulsion, without first having followed fair procedures to determine if I am “bad news”. Fair procedure would include: telling me exactly what I was “bad news”, telling me exactly what the punishment will be, and giving me a chance to tell my side of the story before punishing me. If Gallaudet chooses to punish me, it must punish all others the same. I was never given a chance to do due process. I felt numb.

When I woke up from death, some people who are loyal to Dwight, told me to shut up and stay in silence. Right now Dwight is walking around freely with a smirk and will not apologize for his actions what he had done. It was the most incompetent decision Gallaudet University chooses to keep Dwight in his office. I was targeted by Dwight’s openly discriminatory policies and the discriminatory policies will be always remembered for abuse of power and corruption on the wrong side of professionalism.

For the last 365 days since my death, I wonder if I actually die, the truth would not be seen.

On November 8, 2016, in SAC 1011, the event, “Deaf in Prison Screening & Discussion” sponsored by Gallaudet ASL & Deaf Studies, the very same department I was part of which was very ironic, and the reason they sponsored this because Dirksen Bauman wanted to do this to cover his ass. Complete bullshit. I asked a question for the audience that will be always remembered for long time, “Why Gallaudet University promote FEAR targeting Deaf returning citizens?” and Dwight was in the same room standing in the back giving me a death stare and that was where I had massive heart attack. Dwight was walking down the aisle—slowly and a smirk. Cool, huh?

My death experience has made me stronger than ever. I recently learned that there has been some “talk” around Gallaudet campus that Dwight might retire early—well, there is no way he would walk away with it. My death does not give him full satisfaction and sit in the sun with a smirk. Will Dwight ever experience death for ten minutes and wake up and realize that he is asshole? It was all about personal attack against me as a motivation to new heights of fervor. Master Yoda said: “Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.”

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-JT

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