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How to Stop the Avalanche of Hate

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I would like to express something off my mind for couple of minutes. For the last couple of weeks, I’ve received ugly postings about me from my own Deaf community. I am aware that I had been dealing with hate to make sure I disappear off the Mother planet. I come to understand the dangers of hate mongers than ever. Times I would be warned not to write about my experience as a returning citizen. This could not be further from the truth. If you have hard time reading the print in the picture on the left, I apologize for sloppy marker.

The questions I wrote down: Do we believe that youth who make horrible mistakes deserve second chances? Do we believe youth can develop character beyond their crimes?

I believe in resistance and challenge against hate, as a means of survival and hope. I did not create hate in the first place. You did. For 21 years, there are people had been threatening me and put me in human exile. That sucks because I had been working hard to change my life around. I refuse to live in someone else’s shadow.

For the haters out there, please understand this—TAUNTS just does not work. I do not need shame and disrespect, shows that hate STILL kills’ people and corrupt systems. However, I’ve reached the underlying reasons for the resistance and I believe in second chances. Sadly, due to institutional and societal barriers, once I entered back into community, there were challenges of employment, housing, and help for support and I’ve faced hardships where I had to deal with mental and physical abuses for telling truth.

Gandhi writes,

Many people, especially, ignorant people, want to punish you for speaking the truth, for being correct, for being you. Never apologize for being correct, or being years ahead of your time. If you’re right and you know it, speak your mind. Even if you are a minority of one, the truth is still there.”

My journey as Deaf returning citizen as indirectly described, has been carried around with the educational champions of the Sociology world I fell in love with, and found my Deafhood identity. The hardships are claimed. Deaf Studies are claimed. It is a new birth: the “origin” of my stories. All the hard work of building self-confidence, all the bulwark in the face of hate that is often subtle, yet no less compassion, than hate in the community. I remind myself to live constantly in George Orwell’s “Journalism is printing what someone else does not want printed. Everything else is public relations.”

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When I see this photo the other day, I see it as a metaphor for the intellectual decline of American people to understand stories.

Hate is virtually deserted, devoid of human life; surrounded millions of old souls, the stories will be unthinkable. Is hate an unforgiving society? Does that mean it also allows deficit thinking to build more fear? Even a single story of a Deaf returning citizen can change the world. Will we accept the fact that hate is a painstakingly back-up human error? Are Deaf returning citizens even part of Deaf Studies?

I just wanted you to know that I stand strong. Sure, I can be hard on myself for my imperfections and mistakes even my failures and I am aware of the haters who are obsessed with me as a Deaf returning citizen and try to pull my life down. I’m tired of crab theory. I am tired of rumor-mongers. The last words of this blog when I would like to say that I deal with hate a lot, I do not hide my face under a mask or nothing. Here is the thing: More and more people criticize it, but most likely shift the blame for who is responsible.

Last October 2015, I was invited to give a lecture for CSUN Social Justice conference sponsored by Deaf Studies Association, I felt very good what I’ve contributed back to the community. That matters the most to me.

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I continue to complete my ultimate goals. I will not be intimidated. Let’s remind ourselves this month of October is National Bullying Prevention Month.

-JT

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What Was Laurent Clerc Thinking That Night?

Do you Support Transformative Healing?

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It takes the greatest amount of strength to overcome the world’s evil motto: Stigma.

Every day in the life of an American, while the life expectancy of the average American is almost 79 years, those who lack awareness to understand hate. Deaf returned citizens, in body, mind, and spirit would most likely have difficult life and expect shorter lives. Should we believe in necessity of the healing will allow them to live longer life—how does the transformative healing happen with Deaf returned citizens? They can become better people. Better wisdom. Better mentors. Better teachers.

We can make all the difference today in Deaf community by becoming part of collective family. Can we make their lives to change every day because of Deafhood networking like you? A good change is good! Reminding them to live in the past does not solve anything. Stigma is not the answer.

Bodies do heal, emotions are expected to lift, courage returns are best thing, and those Deaf returned citizens were once broken in body and spirit because whole, strong people. Trees are part of our soul-searching. They are the powerful tool to heal us! Appreciate the eyes of trees every day. Your contributions or support would be appreciated and make this possible.

 

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Mothers Are Also Survivors of Alexander Graham Bell

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This is my sweet and loving Mother. In this picture on the right, my mother was 20 years old while on the left, my 21 years old father. It was taken at a park in Woodland, Washington on July 22, 1976. My mother was pregnant with my brother Steven.

Today is Mother’s Day. All the mothers are also survivors of Alexander Graham Bell’s lies and promote human crisis to challenge their own democracy including my mother’s child as the state of being Deaf and the rights to use American Sign Language. Alexander Graham Bell Association has fooled many mothers into treating of his anti-democratic actions as “normal”—not only that, but also intimidated and silenced my mother through a human threat. I am sure that it has happened to many mothers of Deaf children.

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Five months later after the picture were taken; my mother became a human subject of a survivor on the same day when I was taken to Tucker-Maxon Oral School and examined like a lab rat. I have been thinking about this all the time, realizing that my mother also had a moment of courage, this is true for everyone, but it is particularly true of emotional and human abuse survivors.

The fact my mother were fooled and she managed to survive is in and of itself a tremendous act of courage. My mother still believed in me, and she also discovered Deafhood that would become a positive step through my journey. It is a light at the end of the tunnel.

In order to call out Alexander Graham Bell Association to apologize for all those lies and hatred, all the survivors, realize that hope is a powerful motivator and a great antidote to fear. Unfortunately, AGBell does not believe in hope—they believe in practicing hatred. That is what they do.

My mother said to me in person, “I am sorry, honey, that I did not learn ASL long time ago” while she was crying and that breaks my heart. Damn you, AGBell for tearing up my relationship with my own mother. Crisis is part of the healing process. When survivors dig through, the pain of their childhood, and struggle to reclaim their lives, their experience uncertainty, fear, and turmoil. Crisis is part of the change process. It is necessary to continue and fight against AGBell.

One of the things we need not to allow AGBell spread lies and hatred 365 days, we need to embrace for change! It teaches us to look to the work we can do on ourselves—repair, maintain, build, and grow—so we can better deal with change that is certain to come. Growth may mean that as Deaf people we must be the ones who to proactively instigate change that is long overdue.

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My mother’s hands holding that 1976 newspaper she has not seen in 20 years. Heart-breaking for both of us. 

Mother’s Day, for example, is now ready to change and grow for love and defeat hatred from AGBell bullshit practices. We will be warmed by change and growth. Our Deafhood will continue. To all the mothers, Deaf and hearing, I wish you a very happy Mother’s Day!

I love you very much, Mom!

Additional blog posts about how AGBell destroyed my family:

https://audismnegatsurdi.com/2013/06/13/oralism-stole-my-fathers-baby/

https://audismnegatsurdi.com/2014/01/11/tucker-maxon-oral-school-pitfall-a-cult-of-ignorance/

https://audismnegatsurdi.com/2014/02/03/tucker-maxon-oral-school-teachers-are-blameless/

https://audismnegatsurdi.com/2014/12/14/with-no-thanks-to-my-alma-mater/

https://audismnegatsurdi.com/2015/01/24/a-not-so-noble-cause-to-support/

-JT

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AGBell: Lies in Layers

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In this writing, we need to challenge the sociological problem of hate-motivated attitude by Alexander Graham Bell supporters that are against American Sign Language (ASL) that should report in the society as a perpetual and rough adventure in the world of evil lies in layers. I believe rather firmly that sociological problems are like bullying that are as urgent as anywhere in America that belittle ASL.

To say “hate” exists is really only a truncated form of expression. It is a fragment, in the semantic sense, because what we need to assert is that there is a language which satisfies the propositional function identifying the fact of our being Deaf, and ASL–as a linguistic community. To assert hate, for example, is to assert that hate do not belong to the fact of our primary language, ASL. There is knowledge of hate that can be obtained by merely looking at it; Hate owes it existence to the way it has been used.

Last night, I was reading a book about Francis Maginn, an Deaf Irishman who was the founder of the British Deaf Association (BDA) which was very fascinating to read, he said something about AGBell in The Deaf Mute: 

We advise the Royal Commission to hesitate before accepting all which the Professor advances. Having been in America and knowing something of Dr. Bell, I wish to say that the deaf mutes of the United States recognise the fact that he is acting in all sincerity and with the best of intentions, and that their esteem for him is not lessened by the contempt in which they hold his theories.

Exactly! Even today in 2017, AGBell are still acting in all sincerity and with the best of intentions to tell society that ASL is not the best self-esteem for Deaf people–and his theories are hateful. As hate is the language of bigotry used in AGBell’s America and our far neighbours can be said to owe it nature to the way the language bigotry have been created and used.  A reasonable question we can put to everyone reads: “How do we know what we are telling you?” Most likely we must use ASL to expression our own experience as Deaf people.

Of course, as a survivor of hate-motivated attitude from AGBell’s philosophy, the people who works for Alexander Graham Bell spread lies about ASL that would destroy Deaf people’s lives—as we grow tired of AGBell’s hatred and its linguistic overuse at all. I think AGBell keeps linguistic “hit lists” and target ASL that they make sure it shall be endangered one day.

That is why we need to focus more on sociological problems to minimize hate in Deaf community—away from AGBell. No formal apologies will ever issue by the hate group, AGBell for spreading false information about ASL. Hate mongers do exist in all chapters that supports AGBell. Please leave ASL alone. Thank you!

-JT

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The Most Controversial Tattoo: Deafhood

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About to get tattooed any minute. April 2010.

I am being tired of called LIAR and accuse me that I was not the first person to have tattoo of Deafhood in America. I do not want to become egoistical about this but I get e-mails telling me that I’m a pathological liar and all nasty messages in the name of the book and I do not deserve it because I am a piece of shit.

They would tell me that Mark Myers was the first person to have tattoo just because people would GOOGLE for Deafhood tattoo and the first picture on the left would be Mark Myers where none of me in there because people make sure I do not exist just like Laurent Clerc that do not deserve to be recognized in France. Please understand that I thank Mark for his contribution very much. Well, in May 2010, we met in Massachusetts for a lecture at a community college for the first time and took picture together. We were proud to do it! We became friends after that. He is a cool lad.

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The reason I have this tattoo because Paddy Ladd’s book has turned me from confused on the issues to compassionate and realize more reasonable vision of better ways to improve our society. There are plenty of conspiracy theories that reject the truth about Deaf citizens today and tomorrow.

Deafhood is my official commission that reports the facts that Deaf people are the worst part of incarceration in form, shape, or space. Again, the tattoo shows an important question: Why do Deaf people want to live in a society that learns towards liberty and democracy for all? It changes my thinking of living in an authoritarian hearing world. It is a stomping ground for once and all.

Deafhood opened my eyes to many things. It is amazing how memory can be stored away silently for so long then have no other trigger than a line from the love of academics around into my brain and I question my validity of Deafhood and preserve my Deaf life. My dedication and self-sacrifice in Deaf community serve as a monument to the exemplary who I am today. I will continue and try my best to contribute for Deaf community and the quest vision of Deafhood as much as I can. I do not care if Deafhood is the most controversial term–or a tattoo.

Eminem once said, “You’ve got enemies? Good. That means you actually stood up for something in your life.”

Bingo.

-JT

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Political Aspects of Deaf Returned Citizens

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There has been a lot of political aspects of Deaf returned citizens life that are connected through their attitudes. In the society America breeds, Deaf returned citizens are being punished for their social, emotional needs and unraveling the fear.  I must first preface my state of being by asserting that I am 100% Deaf. I am not a licensed lawyer, but been beholder for quite long time after doing extensive research with my vigorous heart on this project by acquiring necessary accommodations for their optimal education experience continues to challenge Deaf returned citizens today.

Instead of exploiting myself and trying to present a life that allows people to feel tolerant and open-minded I present the struggles and triumphs of my life in a human way. There are good days and bad days. Sometimes people are insensitive. Hypersensitivity is not what Deaf people are seeking. The points brought up on the curbing of “disability” by sterilization are still pertinent to today and current practices.

It is evident from my experience that the field of Deaf Studies has not come to a head. There is more work to be done in order to make it so that the individuals who are not exploited in Literature and Film, but portrayed and seen as equals to individuals not exhibiting Deafhood. Being exposed to early literature and film makes one aware that even with vast improvements in rights and advantages that the Deaf people enjoy, there are still negative mentalities that have not been eliminated.

From Paddy Ladd, the author of Understanding Deaf Culture: In Search of Deafhood said that ” Deafhood is a process by which Deaf individuals come to actualize their Deaf identity, positing that those individuals construct that identity to their heightened forms by various forms such as nation, era, and class

For people who do not understand what Deafhood is—it means a process, a journey for all Deaf people. In better terms, the measurement is not required for who is Deaf or who is not. In advanced terms, it is not state, which focuses on people’s existential stances.

I would like to thank all the people who provided a support network to me as I struggle through my daily challenges. I feel overwhelmed with grief that had descended into depression. For the first time in a long time, I wonder how I would survive without the few people in my life who truly supportive.

In addition, I would like to thank Deaf Counseling Center (DCC) and it was a blessing for the center to be part of my life progress.

Without the guidance of DCC, I realized that I was self-medicating for the spiral of negative events that plagued me. Long before DCC came into my life, back in Oregon, I had difficulty finding professional counseling help to find an interpreter for me during my subsequent appointments and my appointments were delayed several weeks. With Deaf licensed professional therapists at DCC, I had been experiencing positive results with treatment, my therapy is still relatively new.

Even so, I find myself hopeful for my continued progress in my life. Today, there are thousands of Deaf returned citizens who are struggling with their lives without help of Deaf-centric counseling, they are not alone. They need to have some notion that they need to have some conceptualization of what they are to the community around us before they can comfortable live in the society. All people share this desire.

For example, they had been denied from the society along with the true sense of belonging. Their experiences have become an important part of their lives through “society” policies and laws that systematically oppressed them.

With this notion in place, the society needs to learn the social practices to centralize these oppositions and deconstruct Deaf returned citizens for the betterment of democracy, respect, and genuine appreciation of Deaf people.

-JT

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References:

http://tipjones.com/uncategorized/4-quick-tips-to-overcome-fear/

The Nation Was Also Built By Laurent Clerc

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History Through Deaf Eyes 

Today, May 1st is Immigrant Rights Day! Consider, to begin with a colonialism scene in Deaf world–especially in America that time. In 1816, Laurent Clerc to begin his journey for America knew the destiny to create in the name of Deaf Education. Clerc was the ONE who generated Deaf Education, without him, it would not be the same. It was a fate to get rid of Audism and break the colonization.

This was the time that Clerc had to articulate his teaching philosophy in America. The ability to acquire and use sign language exclusively is valuable for Deaf students in the field of literatures and Clerc strive to have students actively thinking about higher education within minutes of entering the classroom, and when communication something Clerc pushed to use as much sign language as possible.

Clerc had been teaching for long time, and I’m sure he enjoyed this work a lot. He had coordinated Deaf Education and there is no way he would realize that his presence had developed and facilitated many courses through the College-wide Curriculum Committees and Higher Education Commission. His gift for America was a huge amount of time, and through this process, he determined to boil down his teaching philosophy to higher principles that Clerc as an immigrant made a huge difference today.

The most important principle of Deaf Education is always demonstrating a passion for higher learning. Unfortunately, there is no unique recipe for passion that works for all Deaf students. While for some Deaf students it is important to know how to use ASL, others find the ideas for education in ASL interesting by themselves.

The final grade has been a top-priority for many Deaf students, but I am sure that Clerc always do his best to explain that it should an ultimate goal for acquiring skills in ASL. Otherwise, students would gain the skills in ASL after classroom is over and that is very desirable for Clerc.

So, I feel that Clerc as an immigrant with his credentials why Deaf Education is important and where it is used today and explain the ideas behind philosophy and linguistics, propagating the idea that ASL can be approached from two perspectives, science (descriptive) and art (prescriptive). Before proceeding to the theory Clerc would give a lot of examples and usually draw appropriate pictures.

Clerc’s passion is enthusiasm for acquiring and mastering ASL for Deaf students. His enthusiasm must be infectious enough to transmit to the students. In this case they would learn ASL because of ASL itself and not only because it is used somewhere else. The goal here is to share the beauty of ASL. Deaf students, I am sure that have never complained about a lack of enthusiasm.

We reinforce Deafhood every time we use ASL. © Jason “JT” Tozier 2017

Clerc might not also realize that he brought human rights of the Deaf in America. It was all about modeling and teaching professional behavior and respect. To Clerc, teaching and learning is palpable: When Clerc can see it in a student’s visible delight in acquiring and using ASL jargon; when Clerc can read the excitement in students’ essays about ASL or Deaf experience that is also part of Deaf Studies, Clerc cannot say anything better than an Irish writer, W.B. Yeats about teaching when he wrote:

Education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire.

Clerc’s energy had ignited in Deaf students a passion to learn as much as possible and be professional within the field of Deaf Studies. I can best summarize in one word for Clerc: passion. Passion helps the Deaf students engage in the course assignment, even if there is no “correct answer” in the processes of exploring the language and culture of the Deaf. Engaged students in classrooms must work hard, write about their Deaf experiences, and learn to think, respect others, and above all, have fun!

Clerc was the most important Deaf immigrant in America. Thank you, Laurent Clerc for your genius and innovations. You were the face of human rights! After all, we are a nation of immigrants. Behold the Deaf community in highest standard possible! Yes, Immigrant Rights are Human Rights!

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-JT

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References:

https://www.neh.gov/explore/history-through-deaf-eyes

 

Baby Step to Reveal My Life

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1984. Lewisville Park. My dad and my brother in the background. (I never liked Nike!)

I would walk through the same paths in rural area where I grew up living in country on 400 acres, being lonely where my life was destroyed there, my father asked me why I would stand hopeless in the middle of the family’s property one day when I was visiting there about seven years ago, the search for the remain of my fatal happiness, I could not explain to my father why I walked into the familiar flashes of my own negligence.

Even in sphere of Deafhood, there are plenty of rumormongers who are hypocrites themselves. There is a major theme that needs to be embedded in literature today. The acceptance of Deaf returned citizens, the nature and persistence of Deaf returned citizens, and the character of Deaf returned citizens as they shape their intellectual life.

Before I begin to make a statement, it is important that I would like to set the bar. There were countless times during my status as a Deaf returned citizen; I learned how to use my own strength to overcome the adversity for a successful reintegration. I make this clear to admit that I make no excuses for my actions and offer any apologies for the choices I had made—at someone else’s will because my adolescent experience was set in motion the development of losing my human dignity.

Where are the welfare, safety, and protection of the Deaf returned citizens when they were once children survivors of abuses that the society failed to report them? I was a survivor of sex abuse when I was 10 years old that I will reveal soon. The reality is, though the details of my life are largely ignored in larger context, no amount of help has surfaced to help me move on through the damage that I had done to my reputation.

The Pandora’s box I plan to reveal soon and that was the hardest thing to write. I am tired of being targeted anymore for the stigma to be solved through the thick wheel of fortune. Criminal justice system is broken. They choose to withhold my stories and harm me in most ridicule way. I read Friedrich Nietzsche’s quote that caught my attention,

Sometimes people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed.”

That is my goal to disclose my life struggles to let the readers know that the self-discipline is necessary.

I remember a field trip when my teacher would take me and three other kids from my “hearing impaired” class to OMSI (Oregon Museum of Science and Industry) then when it was over for the day, my teacher took us to her house for a bit when she needed to do a quick errand before taking us back to school. There was a large craved wood display of a large breast hanging on the wall in her living room and I asked my teacher, “Who was that?” and she emphasized it was hers and that was when I was nine years old. That was in 1983. Was it unintentional or intentional wrongdoing even if it is as form of art on the wall? Did I deserve to see this?

After all, who would willingly do that as a teacher that would diminish my confusion what sexuality consists of? Then I started to struggle my balance to maintain good grades in school when she is there. Two years later when I first got TTY for the first time, I remember couple of TTY messages exchanged with my teacher and told her what she did was wrong; she quickly denied and made sure that I was some troublemaker. I struggled with my own interpreters when my teacher was the boss of my interpreters.

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Celebrating my 12th year of my life. 

Typically, Deaf children are considered troublemakers with the opportunity given threatens by their sound-oriented teachers whatever affliction Deaf children suffer from manifested it. You know, the teacher or school itself was supposed to seek each parent’s permission along with signing the form of agreement to have the teacher take us out of “educational” settings heading for her residence. The form was never materialized.

They forgot to teach Deaf children the most important evidence of all: Logic and reason. I was never taught that way with extremely lack of communication in my family that it was a wrong reason to do it and that became logic of my stupidity a bit later in my life. What I do not need right now in my life filled with hatred, fear, and angry from the numbskulls that fuels the desire to demonize my life hardships.

This is one of baby steps for me to reveal my life stories. As the quote would wrap up for the thought of the day:

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-JT

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