Handwritten Letters From Jail Uncensored

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When I received a package from my mother and it had contained many letters from 23 years ago writing to my mother while I was incarcerated, the letters proved the greatest driven in my mission to break the impossible. The fact my state of being Deaf returnee had made me the strongest asset to my survival and defy the odds.

While I was reading those letters last night, flashbacks were meant to teach me how to learn how to walk through the harshest punishments, defining my life who I am, and learned how to manage to crack the code of bullying. Finally, if there is not the triumph of hope, what will it be like?

I should explain that sometimes I find myself seeing life without its reasons. It is kind of experience, one where the compassion melt away, and it is most often when we are in denials. Ever since I was incarcerated, there was a part of me that has been searching for the story-telling purpose behind it all with the goal to become repentant and rehabilitated. I became the first family member to graduate from university.

I helped passed the hate crime law to protect Deaf community in state of Oregon. It was one of my greatest gift ever. 

I worked very hard to defy the odds when people said I would have no chance at all instead of sending me threatening e-mails, in person, and you name it all.

Whenever I was writing letters, I look beyond the walls of hope. I did not give up. It was not something you would see everyday. Because of the letters I wrote, I’ve overcome each obstacle–including the critical goals I set and show what I can do when I come together from walk of life, challenging the differences, and that makes me far stronger than what I was instructed by the very society to divide my life. Not in this life this time.

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I do not believe in the pursuit of individuality where I suffer life long imprisonment for the rest of my life. I share my own experiences, some of the most painful experiences I’d ever endured. To make matters worse I had dealt with naysayers who turn my suffering into financial gain. I refuse to let people define who I am. No one.

After all, the handwritten letters to write is not the one that thinks for me, but the life which makes me think. In some of the letters to my mother that I will share few details that proved a serious change in my life:

Dated: February 25, 1996:

“Like I said, I’ll probably will have long hair by that time!”

Dated: Friday, March 29, 1996:

“There are so many things I would like to do on the day when I get out.”

Dated: May 18, 1996:

“I just wrote 10 goals when I release, these 10 goals are important to do.”

I could go on more, but let’s stop right there.

I miss my hair.

-JT

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Phoenix Police: YOU FUCKING DEAF!?

Phoenix police pulling a gun on parents of four years old whom “mistook” toy doll from store in Phoenix, Arizona, it was trauma enough of them and I support them in suing them for ten (10) million dollars. The family is people of color. The officers who pulled a gun on them were the majority of white.

You had seen the video of police officers cursing at civilians, with scary tactics and death threats which is totally unnecessary, but this witness video where a police officer by the name of Officer Christopher Meyer, who is way too white yells, “I’m gonna fucking put a cap right in your fucking head.” RIGHT FRONT of their own innocent children.

But the big reason I am writing this because Officer Meyer said to the parents who are very much hearing, “YOU FUCKING DEAF!?” and that is where it draws with line. The point is then why it is OK for police officer to use “DEAF” for? Does it mean that Phoenix police does not have any compassion for Deaf community? Think about Phoenix police’s motto: To Ensure the Safety and Security for Each Person in our Community.

Can we ever think about ensure the safety of Deaf people when police officers say, “YOU FUCKING DEAF!?”—Question the safety of police department itself. What I see that is police brutality and mean-spirited statement.

Let’s turn our thoughts to the oppression and it strikes me that the professionalism and leadership of police department in Phoenix is ideological more than phenomenal rather than generosity. Its ambition is to weaken or oppress Deaf Culture based on hearing privileges.

“DEAF” is very sensitive topic to Deaf community. The police department in Phoenix, Arizona hurts Deaf community badly even if Deaf community did not realize how much it hurts them more than the society understands.

Should Deaf citizens in Arizona accept the fact that the police department have all the power to practice language hegemony, and why Deaf citizens are not aware that in state of Arizona that police officers are currently using hateful language using “YOU FUCKING DEAF!?” that there are to practiced in gain and loss. Our society judges gain to be good and loss to be bad, but mocking DEAF in language and culture—what do you call this? Where is bias training? Is it a hate speech?

YOU FUCKING DYKE!? YOU FUCKING FAGGOT!? YOU FUCKING CHINK!? YOU FUCKING COON!? YOU FUCKING APE!? YOU FUCKING JAP!? YOU FUCKING SPIC!? YOU FUCKING RETARDED!? YOU FUCKING REDSKIN!?

YOU FUCKING DEAF!?

The media, including this Officer Christopher Meyer, has judged the action of using DEAF in spoken language to be bad and ignorant. The law enforcement was supposed to “protect and respect” instead of intimidation and culture of fear. There are plenty of bias in police departments all over country.

The practice of “hate spew”—YOU FUCKING DEAF!?—is a projection from the professional ignorance of their nature that as long as there is bullying language, and it was shameful of Phoenix Police Department for culture of bullying.

How come Arizona Association of the Deaf (AZAD) did not take action quick enough to recognize the bullying language by police department to mock “YOU FUCKING DEAF!?” in spoken English language that is often known for oppression. Is this a good example of police terrorism?

Why are Deaf people continue to be oppressed that police department know enough to use spoken language by encouraging hateful, explicit, bigoted, violent to suppress and sabotage not only Deaf community, but also the Deaf citizens who seeks the safety and security as each person in Phoenix community, how would Deaf community in Arizona deal with that?

-JT

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