When I flew with Carl Schroeder and visited Washington, D.C, the home of Gallaudet University for the first time in June 2010—changed my life FOREVER!!! Toward the end of my first meeting with some of ASL/Deaf Studies professors, I was trying to figure out how to overcome my fears and should I join the graduate program. The first person that came out of the room and meet Carl right away was the chair of the ASL/Deaf Studies also one of three founders for graduate program, and Carl introduced me.
The word was that ASL/Deaf Studies department wanted to make bold reforms and Carl sent a text message for the Chair through Blackberry (both had Blackberry) to meet up for a beer along with me that night but the Chair did not respond two days later. He claimed that he was “busy”. His presence was a total snoozer. The usual suspects said the usual things. Nothing new or innovative emerged. Before I walked out of Sorenson Language Communication Center (SLCC), I asked Carl to take a picture of me and knew that it was my calling—Gallaudet is my home!
Then we walked into bookstore to look around for books or stuff whatever we like and see to buy and saw many Deaf people signing and I felt empowered by that moment! That was my adventure and then stayed in the DC greater area for couple of days before returning home in Portland, Oregon. Then I applied for graduate program in 2011 then quickly got accepted in, but I was not ready for couple of reasons: What major informational source does Gallaudet University rely upon to form such hateful, ignorant, and bigoted statements about Deaf returning citizens in general and in specific?
That was one of the reasons I was not ready. So, I gave two years to focus on myself and grabbed all the books I could read about Deaf Studies by going to my favorite bookstore, Powell’s, the best place anywhere in Portland. I would go there every weekend and grab a book and sit in the coffee garden and read there. It was a perfect escape from the reality and read. There were hundreds of different people coming in from the walks of life and some of the people in that coffee garden would have some brightest minds. Not only that but I do my homework there all the time, too.
Then in 2013, Department of ASL/Deaf Studies gave me the ultimate prize: Full scholarship and I accepted the award. The Chair and Dean of the Graduate and Professional Studies Program who is now a Provost approved the letter. Remember, they both are hearing with all the privileges they have. I moved to Washington, D.C. and took the risk. Even my mother warned me that she thought something would happen badly to me. I told my sweet mother, “I have to take the risk because it is the only way I can heal my life”–good enough, my mother was right.
As a Deaf returning citizen, I worked very hard to turn my life around even if it is 30 years ago–unfortunately, I witnessed horrifying mental abuses inside Gallaudet: Chair for Department of ASL/Deaf Studies, Director for Department of Public Safety, Dean of Student Affairs, Dean of Graduate and Professional Programs, Associate Dean of Student Center Programs and Services, ASL/Deaf Studies coordinator, Director of Mental Health Center and even couple of other professors and associate professors.
I was chained to trees and walls. The experience was one of the worst I ever dealt with. Gallaudet University treats Deaf returning citizens like they are in cages, enslaved by chains, and make sure they are all part of dying humanity. They were all attempting to murder my life and made sure I was the laughingstock (a person subjected to general mockery or ridicule) on the campus.
As the academic year opens at colleges and universities across the country, the most hated groups of students will be underrepresented in classrooms: Deaf returning citizens. They had been rejected to show their abilities and the motivation to earn their degrees. They had been shut out of higher education because of their mishaps. It is time to remove the hidden penalty for Gallaudet University to illegally kick them out. They do not need to deal with stigma anymore. It is a mental illness–it is.
Gallaudet University and ASL/Deaf Studies do not support Deaf returning citizens at all. In a meeting in November 2013 with before then Dean of the Graduate Program and the Chair, the Dean signed to me with the Chair being as the strongest witness, “Gallaudet University do not support returning citizens. They are always the worst people on Earth.” I was very surprised what the Dean said and the Chair did not even say anything. The Chair was really scared of his boss.
I was so ready to walk out of the meeting and the Dean signed to me, “Go ahead. I dare you to leave the meeting.” then I realized that I needed to be strong about this. My mistake is that I did not present a lawyer in the Dean’s office. I decided to write this because what I did when I was a 12 YEARS OLD preadolescent was, of course, terrible, it was more than long time ago, 30 years ago. All I want to lead a normal life.
It sends a clear message that bigotry of Deaf returning citizens is allowed at Gallaudet University, now home of mentality plantation. It is also the center of mental condition to make sure Deaf returning citizens suffer with their own stales, socially created traumas, stigmatizations, which had actually destroyed their lives for their own pleasure.
This is only beginning. I have more to write. There are another people that are yet to be named. Those people robbed and destroyed my life. They will deny that the fact that they had done to me. They live in white lies. I was disgusted by those people’s selfish, hate-filled attacks on my life.
That is why I am so ready to tell it all. No more bullshit! The truth will come out. Remember,”dying humanity”–part of my life is all what it matters the most to them.
Yes, Deaf returning citizen is a human right.
Desmond Tutu is Awesome!
My New Deafhood Journey: Gallaudet University I wrote in 2013–a week before I begin my graduate studies. Link below:
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